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Stress and Being In A Funk
Happy hump day my lovelies. Today’s post is definitely going to be on the more personal side. I have re-written it so many times not quite sure what I want to say. I know we all deal with stress. Some are better at handling it than others. It’s inevitable. I even made a post on how to relax and de-stress.
Stress can also creep up on us as well. There are times I will feel anxious and I’m not sure why.
I’ve been in a funk and stressed pretty much all week. On Monday when I woke up, I was so anxious. Sunday night I slept horribly because I kept worrying about things that shouldn’t be a big deal. I’m trying not to make them a big deal but my body has another idea. I so anxious. All my techniques to help me calm down didn’t even work.
The things I am worrying about are so mundane that I feel like I should not be stressing about them but here I am. I’m worrying about pictures, an event and even money. Now money is something I’m sure everyone one stresses about.
I’m also in this weird funk where I see myself as a failure and haven’t accomplished everything in my life. I don’t think this is helping with the stress. Here I am comparing myself to all these people on Instagram who have amazing pictures and look fabulous. It makes me wonder that if I had a bunch of money, I could afford a professional photographer and new clothes all the time. But really, I just want to make a living off my blog.
I barely get by in life with what I do but I love what I do. There are times I wish I had more photo shoot and commercial gigs. When I have those, I make really good money but the thing is, they don’t happen all the time. And this is why I think I’m a failure. I don’t want to just get by, I’d love my own place and soon. I thought getting accepted to RewardStyle would help me. Granted I’ve made more money in 3 weeks than I did with being on ShopStyle for over a year. Just a few sales made a difference.
I want more out of life. And let me tell you, I’m not going to let a bit of stress and this funk stop me. I love blogging and I am going to keep it up. I’m also going to start contacting more publishing and production companies in my area to let them know I am interested in styling shoots and commercials for them. I am not going to stop until I am where I want to be in life! I am a Girl Boss!
So sorry for this rambling and personal post. I just had to get some stuff off my chest. Unfortunately, I did not get everything off since I did not think it was appropriate to post in on the Internet. Some of my friends read this and I don’t want to start.
Anyways, I saw this quote on Miri’s blog yesterday, “Don’t compare your insides to other people’s outsides.” Isn’t that quote amazing? I am going to make that my new mantra!